EmLah at 12:04 pm
The wonder that is my course :)
Introduction to Theatre: Texts and Contexts
Directing 1
Theatre Technical Studies 1
Popular Theatre 1
Theatre Scriptwriting 1
Nineteenth Century European Theatre
Photography Practical
im so excited!!!! granted that adds up to about 20hrs a week of lectures and seminars but i suppose thats pretty good really
and if id stuck with english id only have been able to take half of these. it was hard enough to choose as it was!!
EmLah at 11:44 am
im so hungover, the words hurt my eyes... and i have to mak emy module choices in a minute
life eh?
im just gonna b sticking the best pics on here i reckon so keep checking flickr for nights out :>
EmLah at 9:32 am
its here, its started, im at uni. FOOOK YEEEEEAAAAHlol its all very new and strange. i live in a flat at the top of a seriously steep hill, and i mean like practically a mountain. with 5 other people, 4 guys and another girl. its cool, i made friends with our opposite flat yesterday and now we have like a big party crew. the girl in my flat, Jo, seems a bit quiet but im sure we can sort her out :). ive hit it off quite well with Dan and Sean in my flat, and Becky and Andy in the other flat, also Sarah and Ruth (lol i know again) r cool and a girl from my course also called Becky is cool. i have decided to drop english and do the full drama (theatre and media) course mainly cos its immence but also cos the english department have appeared pretty shit so far so id rathewr do something good :). must dash gotta buy tickets for the party tonight!!
My Car (the backseat was only hafl full!!)
The Severn Bridge
Quite a good view
My room
Kitchen complete with Dan and Sean
Beky and Ryan from next door
and a bemused looking sean
EmLah at 3:52 pm
i love them too much!!
"somebody told me that id always have to bow, if that was true i'd have fallen apart by now"
mmmmmmmmm
my new camera came and its beautiful and fookin fantastic. this is a test photo i took thro 3 panes of dirty glass!!! and its only set on 5mp.... (evil voice) imagine what we could odo with this pinky.....
Treee
ok so the blogger uploader is being gay so i have to use hello.
ah weeeeell
so im off to sunny cardiff tomoro, i dont actually move in til sunday for some reason which is a touch annoyin but hey. i have like a huage suitcase full of clothes, a laundry bag of shoes (and charlie the bear) a box of books, a box of kitchen stuff, probably a box of food as well, then a duvet and 2 pillows, my laptop, printer, speaker system, TV AND a backpack full of what i like to call "my personal crap" u know toilettries and pictures n random things u forget to put in your suitcase.
but my room still looks really full, im guessin because all my CD cases and DVD boxes r still here, and theres loads of books still. but u know!!! tis slightly disconcerting :S
next year will b fun when i get my house :) especially since im so taking my painting with me.
now for those of u that dont know about my painting.... its a big canvas with two sliced up kandinskies painted onto it, it would have got me an A* at GCSE if my coursework hadnt been 'twee' bastard. but anyway i love it to bits and i want it on my wall in a house someday. and it so gonna be my uni one.
ah i cant find a pic of it on this computer annoying lol.
so i took some with the fabby cam lol
"somebody told me that id always have to bow, if that was true i'd have fallen apart by now"
mmmmmmmmm
my new camera came and its beautiful and fookin fantastic. this is a test photo i took thro 3 panes of dirty glass!!! and its only set on 5mp.... (evil voice) imagine what we could odo with this pinky.....
Treee
ok so the blogger uploader is being gay so i have to use hello.
ah weeeeell
so im off to sunny cardiff tomoro, i dont actually move in til sunday for some reason which is a touch annoyin but hey. i have like a huage suitcase full of clothes, a laundry bag of shoes (and charlie the bear) a box of books, a box of kitchen stuff, probably a box of food as well, then a duvet and 2 pillows, my laptop, printer, speaker system, TV AND a backpack full of what i like to call "my personal crap" u know toilettries and pictures n random things u forget to put in your suitcase.
but my room still looks really full, im guessin because all my CD cases and DVD boxes r still here, and theres loads of books still. but u know!!! tis slightly disconcerting :S
next year will b fun when i get my house :) especially since im so taking my painting with me.
now for those of u that dont know about my painting.... its a big canvas with two sliced up kandinskies painted onto it, it would have got me an A* at GCSE if my coursework hadnt been 'twee' bastard. but anyway i love it to bits and i want it on my wall in a house someday. and it so gonna be my uni one.
ah i cant find a pic of it on this computer annoying lol.
so i took some with the fabby cam lol
Away
Close Paint
EmLah at 3:49 pm
http://formymac.com/MR/harrypotterandthegobletoffire_trlr_02_fugfvv_dl.movthis boys and girls, would be the link for the new harry potter film trailor.
i love harry potter
far too much
and now they r doing the 4th film
the trailor is immence
i have goosebumps
in the words of simon: "it was so good ill have to go have a wank"
adieu
EmLah at 2:14 pm
well what can i say?!?! there is nothing! throughout the day i had various substances spilled on me, won 2 out of 3 games of pool, got various injuries from kicking/stamping/tickling/scratching/biting incidents.its all gravy baby. Padge won with a wondrous score of 17 sips from the 11 pubs we visited along billericay high street. dave got 18 i got 25 and paul who was a late starter at 6 o'clock deserves praise if only cos the poor boy did 7 shots in his first pub just to catch up with the rest of us :S.
i wasnt actaully as bad as i have been before now, was sober by the end but that was probly cos i was well pissed off that i couldt go 5 misn without being either insulted or attacked. im just fucked off that i cant spend time with these guys without being made to feel stupid/dense/weak or whatever urgh i love them but sometimes i feel like im back at junior school and being bullied by jon cross again GRRR
sorry sorry
i am a sleeping cow in a hindu village
ehehehe
heres some of my murals as yet for my uni wall :)
EmLah at 3:36 pm
i havent really been doin much other than playin neopets lol. but i love it i just realised iv never even posted stuff like what my pets look like n stuff, yes i know now i sound like a 10 year old but its a fun thing to do and it stops me being too bored :P
so these r my pets:
mithros_sun 
oratario
Triclicle 
Trixid
EmLah at 3:08 pm
I feel bad i havnt posted but nothing much has been happenin. went out for lunch again yesterday n then went bowling spent about a tenner tryin to win a tigger on the giant hand grabber but it kept dropping it.* then came home and played the wonder of Neopets Premium and today i have merely been tryin to get better, make photo murals, and get lots of neopoints thats it. thats my life.
TURN UP THE GOOD AND TURN DOWN THE SUCK
*Harley also fell over and hurt himself when he was bowling (boohooooooo poor baby did harley warley fall over and get a booboo? and then moan that i didnt mention it on here :))
EmLah at 7:24 pm
This is my new pet Dave. Hes a Llama
EmLah at 12:02 am
i found a website with a load of funky lil gifs! Here
its a mooooose
went out as ever last night. ran into 2 guys from my junior school, i have never seen anyone gawp so much about how much id changed. hilahrious. only took 2 pics of the girls but here they r
Gaby and Aarti(whos at Uni in Cardiff so i have a floor to sleep on) Sarah Katie Beth n Tash
and here is a very very funky rock on hand i found on MySpace
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EmLah at 12:37 pm
i dont know why im so stressed
actually i do lol. im fuckin fed up of this place. no freedom. even in what i wear do and say. i spend all day thinkin "oh god i cant do that cos that'll make/cause/look (insert a problem)
i even just had a go at harley for not wanting to hang out with my other friends inc. paul n that. which i am pissed off about but they all do it not just him it just makes me feel so streched trying to keep everyone happy, not feeling like ive let anyone down and all that bullshit. i dont go out during the day cos its too much effort to go anywhere and i hate the feeling of being judged by everyone thats under 25 and walks past me. i mean i just walked to the health centre and back in a baseball cap and everytime i walked past someone i thought "they know im wearing this hacos my hair is greasy they must think im well disgusting for not washing it before i came out" it just highlights how much i fucking hate living here. i know a lot of it is in my head but it was drummed into said head when i started school so how the fuck am i supposed to shake it off! i try i really do at least i can actually go outside with greasy hair under a cap now. 2 years ago that would never have happened.
i hate that i yelled at harley and in all honesty id have shut up about it and apologeised by now if he hadnt called me a cunt. i fucking hate that word, yes i know i say it when im drunk but it doesnt bloody mean i use it all the time its horrible, its timbre and tone are horrible and whoever came up with that word should be fucking dug up reserrected and then made into pidgeon food whilst still alive.
i need to get away. i need to go somewhere without politics about caps and shoes and combinations of clothing. and i need to have one group of friends not 3 that never interract.
HELP
EmLah at 3:54 pm
ah another great nite out. beths back and looking very very tanned grr. i managed to start out not drinkin then decided it was too hard, then simon turned up and i wasnt smokin then i decided it was too hard and he should give me lots of cigarettes. ah weel. good nite tho we all went to Lloyds eventually cos beth had to go home and get her drivers license. i mean u drive to Chelmo without your licence and have to Drive back to get it cos they wont let u into a club. surely the whole driving without a license thing should have been our main concern. heh apparently not :)
so we danced the night away and i finally got with Simon, even tho he informed me the love of his life was there. lol i sure can pick 'em eh? so me him n adam went back to adams and we watched cruel intentions and cuddled up on his spare mattress, even tho simon decided he neede cigarettes at 5:30am and went off to find them having many adventures with a baker and a cabby on the way there and back.
EmLah at 2:54 pm
another entertaining day. of doing jack shit until i go to bed. well actually i did clean out under my bed which included having to hoover up spiders yuck. and i kept coming accross my smell. now its weird of me to call it my smell, but its the smell of my old hair syrum and i love love looooove it. tis weird how i associate hair smells with places iv been, like this hair syrum is yr 10 til lower sixth i reckon. then it turns into the fibre putty smell of the stuff i used up until i went to canadia actually i took it with me just never used it. but canada is the mixed smells of the Lush shampoos i used out ther, more so the Karma conditioner which got melted on our radiator!
i ama strange person but im sure its the same for most that being in certain places has certain feelings which u only ever realise were the feelings u had whilr u were ther when something triggers them. for me its these smells lol.
but anyway i cleared out from under my bed a load of dead tamigotchies a giant magnet and a dead torch, a few other things like my frankfurt boots ( which i still love but they are 4 inch platforms so i really cant wear them unless i wanna hit my head on doorframes) and some old backpacks and dusty bags.
i swear my room really attracts dust i guess its cos theres so much stuff in here u cant get rid of it but i found a black backpack (hideous but again i used to love it) and it was grey!!! i just need a new room thatd be good.
right im off to watch bringing out the dead a lesser known scorsese but i shall goive it a try eh?? xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
EmLah at 10:58 pm
Last Cry: when a certain cast member on Lost died
Last Library Book Checked Out: Lords and Ladies by Terry Pratchett, even tho i own it, but i needed something to read in the park...
Last Movie Seen In a Theatre: Crash
Last Book Read: Bone Dolls Twin, Lynn Flewellin
Last Cuss Word Uttered: Bollocks! i stood up by my door and thumped my back
Last Beverage Drank: full fat organic milk.. JUST SO GOOOD
Last Food Consumed: an Apple
Last Phone Call: Mother to ask for a box (excitement)
Last TV Show Watched: Black Books (poor bloke, hes got Daves Syndrome)
Last Time Showered: yesterday
Last Shoes Worn: Playboy Fluffy Boots, so so so comfy
Last CD Played: Simple Plan - STill not getting any
Last Soda Drank: Coke
Last Thing Written: The address on the envelope with the CD i sold in
Last Words Spoken: "it's 300 and something for something!"
Last Sleep: Last nite weirdly enough
Last IM: Paulo about a certain cast member in Lost dying
Last Sexual Fantasy: me Ian Watkins and a tub of Taramasalata
Last Ice Cream Eaten: Carte Dor Triple Chocolate
Last Time Wanting to Die: Last time i was hungover
Last Time Dancing: Dukes last thursday
Last Show Attended: READING FESTIVAL YEEEEEAAAAAH at the festival.. Mylo
Last Big Car Ride: Reading Festival
Last Crush: My dream man in Dukes who i didnt talk too but he has a girlfriend (i bet shes a trendy biatch only with a sexy rock man like him cos its fashionable)
Last Annoyance: My dad taking the piss when i ran away from a spider in my room
Last Disappointment: Tim not coming down on Monday
Last Shirt Worn: My 'bowling' shirt
Last Web Site Visited: Neopets
Last song you listened to: Burgundy by Dead Poetic
Last song that was stuck in your head: Paint Your Target by Fightstar
NUMBER OF...:x:
piercings = 2 (i actually have 3 how could i forget ITS ON MY FACE FFS)
:x: tattoos = 2
:x: height = 5"11
:x: shoe size = 8
:x: hair color = Blonde with pink splashes
:x: siblings = 1DO...
:x: do you have a crush on anyone now: no
:x: you wish you could live somewhere else: Canadia very yes
:x: you think about suicide: fuck no
:x: you believe in online dating: no
:x: others find you attractive = yes but only people i dont fancy very much
:x: you want more piercings = mebbe
:x: you do drugs = no
:x: you smoke = trying very hard not to, i even bought lozenges
:x: you like cleaning = only kitchens and bathrooms
:x: you like roller coasters = Only if they arent stupidy high like Dragon Kahn
:x: you write in cursive or print = cursive
FAVORITE...
:x: thing to do = sing along to music
:x: thing to talk about = Music
:x: sports = Motor Racing, Snowboarding, Badminton
:x: drinks = COKE, JD n Coke, Corona, Kokanee
:x: alcoholic = Yes..
:x: clothes= Buffalo trainers, HnM jeans, 'bowling' shirt
:x: movies = what dreams may come, the faculty, 28 days later, wimbledon, jurassic park trilogy, donnie darko.
:x: singer = Ian Watkins, Gwen Stefani
:x: holiday = Canadia
HAVE YOU...
:x: ever cried over a girl = no
:x: ever cried over a boy = far too many times WHY DO I ONLY LIKE ARSEHOLES
:x: ever lied to some = yes but i aint proud....ok maybe a little
:x: ever been in a fist fight = yes
:x: ever been arrested = yup shoplifting is bad, peer pressure is worse
WHAT...
:x: shampoo do you use = Lush... Cynthia Stout and American Cream
:x: shoes do you wear = Trainers: Buffalos, Shoes: Black heely dolly shoes, Boots: my 'handbags'
:x: are you scared of = not having control, Depths, Spiders, Dying before i have a real relationship.
NUMBER...
:x: of times I have been in love? 2
:x: of times I have had my heart broken? 2
:x: of hearts I have broken? um 2 i think yikes.
:x: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? 2
:x: of people I consider my enemies? um i dont wanna think about it, all chavs i guess.
:x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? 4
:x: of scars on my body? fuck at least 10 (inc. the one from chucktown riot i told them itd scar)
:x: past regrets? too many but they make me me
FAVORITE...
:x: disney movie = Mary Poppins
:x: word = supercalifragilisticexpealidocious
:x: nickname = EmLah
x: flower = Iris
:x: piercing = Nose
:x: actor = Craig Charles/Anthony Hopkins
:x: actress = Anna Friel/Shannyn Sossamon
THINK YOU ARE...
:x: handsome = i have Good Hair
:x: funny = Sarcastic and Dry yes
:x: hot = I suppose with some Gym work my body would be good
:x: friendly = I am when you get to know me.
:x: amusing = i dont think so, everyone else does
:x: loveable = as a spiky thing in your foot
:x: caring = a little too caring
:x: sweet = well its hot so slightly salty tasting right now..
EmLah at 7:02 pm
I know Paul just informs me im paranoid that he doesnt want to be bothered with me, and i know hes terrible at communicating, and i know we werent the friedns we were at the beginning of the season by the end of it...
...but i still miss the monkey and would occaisionally like to have a convo with him for more than 5 mins. he was a big part of my trip and this strange gap that we have is pretty disconcerting.
but hey maybe its my ruined kidneys and liver talking. urgh im so dead URGH
EmLah at 10:43 pm
im so loving this little dude. everytime my laptop slows down i think of him :)
EmLah at 9:46 pm
EmLah at 4:23 pm
when i say last nite believe me i mean nite. i left home at 5:45pm to go and get some dinner at the boar, see nice sunset photo from the boar garden :S, and i had a few drinks with Paul and the SB crew expecting to be headed off to checkers for a few games of Darts before going back to Padges to drink the night away.
EmLah at 12:23 pm
thers another 250 quid gone. they cant fix my camera cos all the power boards are fooked and would cost a lot to replace them. so iv bought the sexy black camera and a memory card. so ther goes another chunk of my post uni travelling money. i suppose it doesnt help it that about a grand of it has gradually been going into my account since christmas to pay my phone bills and the like eh?
well im not up to much today i think padge is having a house party tonight which should be good. well i wasnt gonna go cos i thought that Tim was actually gonna come up this time, but as iv heard nothing from him im guessing he aint. still iv heard nothing from adam about dukes and itd only be me Paulo and Jane going so i guess ill go party with padgeham.
what the crunk man?!?!? big quote from any given sunday on the front of a Simple Plan track. i had no idea that was there!!
i managed to get my dad to watch Black Books with me today and he laughed!! i love finding him soemthing new to find funny, it was such a given that he would like it since if me and kate both like something and find it funny he always does. but hes a bit like me reading books that other people recommend, id rather find out for myself hence all the random books on my bookshelves!
MATT BUY TERRY PRATCHETT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW
EmLah at 3:54 pm
ok so i hate Villeneuve, the man has always been a menace but it was ok when he wasnt affecting Kimi. now hes effecting Kimi and im going to do him damage. DIE BITCH DIE. cough.
ok so i need a new camera, well that is if the dude cant fix it tommoro and then ill have to buy a new one... the choices are....
Sony DSC-W17
Sony DSC-W5
its looking like the top one even tho its more expensive. even tho i havnt even had the total knowledge that my other one is fooked im still shopping lol.
EmLah at 3:19 pm
It reaally looks too good right now to go unnoticed. i mean i know i was at the pub earlier watching the footy and yes we really did suck we didnt deserve to win at all eh? but i just wanted a good picture of my and here was an oppotunity. although this picture will never ever beat the trillbe picture i think i got close...
... you decide.... (sorry i've run out of Lost episodes)
EmLah at 7:53 pm
thats just gay bar. i figure now they have theyr own photo service they dont want people using other ones.
mmmm bed i think. i swear my body is gonna crash soon.
EmLah at 12:01 am
allo.
lol i ended up out again last nite. i should really learn to say no. but it was for a good reason... ADAM PASSED!! his driving test that is and since this was his 6th attempt we all had to go out and celebrate eh? i also spotted my one true love. fuck me i swear my mouth was hanging open for about 5 mins after i spotted him. tall dark wide shoulders and dressed rock styley witha lil bit of facial hair. obviously i couldnt talk to him cos i am a total chicken. so i got tash to embarress me and inform him of my affections.. ALAS he has a girlfriend. but its ok cos this way he shall be always perfect in my mind. LOL i am actually a nut job.
but yey! should be seeing tim sometime soon. that'll be cool, don't quite know how to tell him that the injection has screwed with my cycle so once more im having the worlds longest period.... yikes i dont think he'll be overly happy. ah well would be bloody weird in my house anyway, my mum would probly implode with excitement that im not a dyke and i actually do occaisionally sleep with men.
pics from last nite as and when..
EmLah at 11:36 am
Was rather amusing. Ruth n SarahG came out to stuarts even and we all had some bevies witht he original SB crew, it was pretty wicked really like old times, especially when the bar closed and we all went back to my old manager Steves house like we always used to, although he didnt make us spag bol just gave us chipsticks and took his shirt off, which is a definate improvment from the last time i was there, since he fell down the stairs butt naked and proceded to run around and try to get me to look at him and his um glory!
heh i really shouldnt drink. but hey ur only young once eh? lol finally decided to actually try n get friendly with Simon, come on he is batman. and it was all goin quite well till we went chelms and he got wasted n pulled his old girlfriend. nah ja. i spent a large portion of the night after that trying to work out if i should sleep with Sharpy or not. lol i mean de ja vu of 10 months ago or what. the funniest thing is hes off on his travels in a few weeks so i guess this is my karma for when i left in october to leave him to bear the brunt of the Stock Brook gossip.
now for those of u who havnt encountered Mike Sharp. he is one seriously hot guy. and i mean HOT i have no idea how i managed to resist him. but i guess even tho i am always attracted to guys who reckon they can do one better (which is probably my balance for it being the way i usually think too) it'd be nice to fall for a guy that doesnt have an ulteria motive. i mean look at my exs' the only guy who is actually different from the usual pattern was scott and we know how that turned out.
so Welsh drama and music geeks here i come eh?
but we all know i'll probably still pull Simon if he tries it on. im a sucker for romance.
EmLah at 2:09 pm
so these r my pets:
mithros_sun oratarioTriclicle Trixid
EmLah at 3:08 pm
I feel bad i havnt posted but nothing much has been happenin. went out for lunch again yesterday n then went bowling spent about a tenner tryin to win a tigger on the giant hand grabber but it kept dropping it.* then came home and played the wonder of Neopets Premium and today i have merely been tryin to get better, make photo murals, and get lots of neopoints thats it. thats my life.TURN UP THE GOOD AND TURN DOWN THE SUCK
*Harley also fell over and hurt himself when he was bowling (boohooooooo poor baby did harley warley fall over and get a booboo? and then moan that i didnt mention it on here :))
EmLah at 7:24 pm
This is my new pet Dave. Hes a Llama| adopt your own virtual pet! |
EmLah at 12:02 am
i found a website with a load of funky lil gifs! Hereits a mooooose
went out as ever last night. ran into 2 guys from my junior school, i have never seen anyone gawp so much about how much id changed. hilahrious. only took 2 pics of the girls but here they r
Gaby and Aarti(whos at Uni in Cardiff so i have a floor to sleep on) Sarah Katie Beth n Tash
and here is a very very funky rock on hand i found on MySpace
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EmLah at 12:37 pm
i dont know why im so stressedactually i do lol. im fuckin fed up of this place. no freedom. even in what i wear do and say. i spend all day thinkin "oh god i cant do that cos that'll make/cause/look (insert a problem)
i even just had a go at harley for not wanting to hang out with my other friends inc. paul n that. which i am pissed off about but they all do it not just him it just makes me feel so streched trying to keep everyone happy, not feeling like ive let anyone down and all that bullshit. i dont go out during the day cos its too much effort to go anywhere and i hate the feeling of being judged by everyone thats under 25 and walks past me. i mean i just walked to the health centre and back in a baseball cap and everytime i walked past someone i thought "they know im wearing this hacos my hair is greasy they must think im well disgusting for not washing it before i came out" it just highlights how much i fucking hate living here. i know a lot of it is in my head but it was drummed into said head when i started school so how the fuck am i supposed to shake it off! i try i really do at least i can actually go outside with greasy hair under a cap now. 2 years ago that would never have happened.
i hate that i yelled at harley and in all honesty id have shut up about it and apologeised by now if he hadnt called me a cunt. i fucking hate that word, yes i know i say it when im drunk but it doesnt bloody mean i use it all the time its horrible, its timbre and tone are horrible and whoever came up with that word should be fucking dug up reserrected and then made into pidgeon food whilst still alive.
i need to get away. i need to go somewhere without politics about caps and shoes and combinations of clothing. and i need to have one group of friends not 3 that never interract.
HELP
EmLah at 3:54 pm
ah another great nite out. beths back and looking very very tanned grr. i managed to start out not drinkin then decided it was too hard, then simon turned up and i wasnt smokin then i decided it was too hard and he should give me lots of cigarettes. ah weel. good nite tho we all went to Lloyds eventually cos beth had to go home and get her drivers license. i mean u drive to Chelmo without your licence and have to Drive back to get it cos they wont let u into a club. surely the whole driving without a license thing should have been our main concern. heh apparently not :)so we danced the night away and i finally got with Simon, even tho he informed me the love of his life was there. lol i sure can pick 'em eh? so me him n adam went back to adams and we watched cruel intentions and cuddled up on his spare mattress, even tho simon decided he neede cigarettes at 5:30am and went off to find them having many adventures with a baker and a cabby on the way there and back.
EmLah at 2:54 pm
another entertaining day. of doing jack shit until i go to bed. well actually i did clean out under my bed which included having to hoover up spiders yuck. and i kept coming accross my smell. now its weird of me to call it my smell, but its the smell of my old hair syrum and i love love looooove it. tis weird how i associate hair smells with places iv been, like this hair syrum is yr 10 til lower sixth i reckon. then it turns into the fibre putty smell of the stuff i used up until i went to canadia actually i took it with me just never used it. but canada is the mixed smells of the Lush shampoos i used out ther, more so the Karma conditioner which got melted on our radiator!i ama strange person but im sure its the same for most that being in certain places has certain feelings which u only ever realise were the feelings u had whilr u were ther when something triggers them. for me its these smells lol.
but anyway i cleared out from under my bed a load of dead tamigotchies a giant magnet and a dead torch, a few other things like my frankfurt boots ( which i still love but they are 4 inch platforms so i really cant wear them unless i wanna hit my head on doorframes) and some old backpacks and dusty bags.
i swear my room really attracts dust i guess its cos theres so much stuff in here u cant get rid of it but i found a black backpack (hideous but again i used to love it) and it was grey!!! i just need a new room thatd be good.
right im off to watch bringing out the dead a lesser known scorsese but i shall goive it a try eh?? xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
EmLah at 10:58 pm
Last Cigarette: 2 days ago when i was drunk
Last Cry: when a certain cast member on Lost died
Last Library Book Checked Out: Lords and Ladies by Terry Pratchett, even tho i own it, but i needed something to read in the park...
Last Movie Seen In a Theatre: Crash
Last Book Read: Bone Dolls Twin, Lynn Flewellin
Last Cuss Word Uttered: Bollocks! i stood up by my door and thumped my back
Last Beverage Drank: full fat organic milk.. JUST SO GOOOD
Last Food Consumed: an Apple
Last Phone Call: Mother to ask for a box (excitement)
Last TV Show Watched: Black Books (poor bloke, hes got Daves Syndrome)
Last Time Showered: yesterday
Last Shoes Worn: Playboy Fluffy Boots, so so so comfy
Last CD Played: Simple Plan - STill not getting any
Last Soda Drank: Coke
Last Thing Written: The address on the envelope with the CD i sold in
Last Words Spoken: "it's 300 and something for something!"
Last Sleep: Last nite weirdly enough
Last IM: Paulo about a certain cast member in Lost dying
Last Sexual Fantasy: me Ian Watkins and a tub of Taramasalata
Last Ice Cream Eaten: Carte Dor Triple Chocolate
Last Time Wanting to Die: Last time i was hungover
Last Time Dancing: Dukes last thursday
Last Show Attended: READING FESTIVAL YEEEEEAAAAAH at the festival.. Mylo
Last Big Car Ride: Reading Festival
Last Crush: My dream man in Dukes who i didnt talk too but he has a girlfriend (i bet shes a trendy biatch only with a sexy rock man like him cos its fashionable)
Last Annoyance: My dad taking the piss when i ran away from a spider in my room
Last Disappointment: Tim not coming down on Monday
Last Shirt Worn: My 'bowling' shirt
Last Web Site Visited: Neopets
Last song you listened to: Burgundy by Dead Poetic
Last song that was stuck in your head: Paint Your Target by Fightstar
NUMBER OF...:x:
piercings = 2 (i actually have 3 how could i forget ITS ON MY FACE FFS)
:x: tattoos = 2
:x: height = 5"11
:x: shoe size = 8
:x: hair color = Blonde with pink splashes
:x: siblings = 1DO...
:x: do you have a crush on anyone now: no
:x: you wish you could live somewhere else: Canadia very yes
:x: you think about suicide: fuck no
:x: you believe in online dating: no
:x: others find you attractive = yes but only people i dont fancy very much
:x: you want more piercings = mebbe
:x: you do drugs = no
:x: you smoke = trying very hard not to, i even bought lozenges
:x: you like cleaning = only kitchens and bathrooms
:x: you like roller coasters = Only if they arent stupidy high like Dragon Kahn
:x: you write in cursive or print = cursive
FAVORITE...
:x: thing to do = sing along to music
:x: thing to talk about = Music
:x: sports = Motor Racing, Snowboarding, Badminton
:x: drinks = COKE, JD n Coke, Corona, Kokanee
:x: alcoholic = Yes..
:x: clothes= Buffalo trainers, HnM jeans, 'bowling' shirt
:x: movies = what dreams may come, the faculty, 28 days later, wimbledon, jurassic park trilogy, donnie darko.
:x: singer = Ian Watkins, Gwen Stefani
:x: holiday = Canadia
HAVE YOU...
:x: ever cried over a girl = no
:x: ever cried over a boy = far too many times WHY DO I ONLY LIKE ARSEHOLES
:x: ever lied to some = yes but i aint proud....ok maybe a little
:x: ever been in a fist fight = yes
:x: ever been arrested = yup shoplifting is bad, peer pressure is worse
WHAT...
:x: shampoo do you use = Lush... Cynthia Stout and American Cream
:x: shoes do you wear = Trainers: Buffalos, Shoes: Black heely dolly shoes, Boots: my 'handbags'
:x: are you scared of = not having control, Depths, Spiders, Dying before i have a real relationship.
NUMBER...
:x: of times I have been in love? 2
:x: of times I have had my heart broken? 2
:x: of hearts I have broken? um 2 i think yikes.
:x: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? 2
:x: of people I consider my enemies? um i dont wanna think about it, all chavs i guess.
:x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? 4
:x: of scars on my body? fuck at least 10 (inc. the one from chucktown riot i told them itd scar)
:x: past regrets? too many but they make me me
FAVORITE...
:x: disney movie = Mary Poppins
:x: word = supercalifragilisticexpealidocious
:x: nickname = EmLah
x: flower = Iris
:x: piercing = Nose
:x: actor = Craig Charles/Anthony Hopkins
:x: actress = Anna Friel/Shannyn Sossamon
THINK YOU ARE...
:x: handsome = i have Good Hair
:x: funny = Sarcastic and Dry yes
:x: hot = I suppose with some Gym work my body would be good
:x: friendly = I am when you get to know me.
:x: amusing = i dont think so, everyone else does
:x: loveable = as a spiky thing in your foot
:x: caring = a little too caring
:x: sweet = well its hot so slightly salty tasting right now..
EmLah at 7:02 pm
I know Paul just informs me im paranoid that he doesnt want to be bothered with me, and i know hes terrible at communicating, and i know we werent the friedns we were at the beginning of the season by the end of it......but i still miss the monkey and would occaisionally like to have a convo with him for more than 5 mins. he was a big part of my trip and this strange gap that we have is pretty disconcerting.
but hey maybe its my ruined kidneys and liver talking. urgh im so dead URGH
EmLah at 10:43 pm
im so loving this little dude. everytime my laptop slows down i think of him :)
EmLah at 9:46 pm
EmLah at 4:23 pm
when i say last nite believe me i mean nite. i left home at 5:45pm to go and get some dinner at the boar, see nice sunset photo from the boar garden :S, and i had a few drinks with Paul and the SB crew expecting to be headed off to checkers for a few games of Darts before going back to Padges to drink the night away.
but 8 o'clock came and went and i was still drink double malibu and cranberries with the crew. at nine i get the call to say that harley n co are now in checkers so off i goes with my backpack contents of which is beer, and more beer. we play Killer, i lose lot and lots basically i suck i really really suck at darts. so me Harley Kat and Austin (Kats bloke) play away until padge arrives and takes us off to his stopping by at Louis' on the way, normal stop youd think normal stop.
THEY PUT ME IN THE BOOT
i was not overly happy about this but i did it anyway otherwise id have ended up walking. now this is 10 o'clock iv been drinking for 4 hours i was quite drunk and im in the boot of the car, so i get images of car crashes some tit hitting the back of the car therefore me. but we get there in one piece me shrieking all the way especially whe padge mounts the curbs ha ha ha.
away we drinks at padges house. his mysertious cocktails eek with game sof 21, think while u drink and i have never. i will never forget that number 10 was Jesus Christ is a Homosexual. excuse me christian viewers i was very very drunk and louis wanted it to be worse. we bounced on the trampoline whichis probably why my back hurts! and then kat n austin went home and paul turns up, this is about 2 am i reckon, thats padge and harley having a lil lovers tiff in the photo by the by. harley very much annoyed me yesterday and considering i was very very drunk it didnt help but its done and im saying nothing about it ever again. im very tempted to put the reason on here but hey why be cruel to the mystery person the comment was about. past done with breeeeeaaaathe. so i fell asleep on teh couch amid flying objects and shouts of
"CAAAARRRRRRMMMMM OOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWNNNNNNN WWAAAAAAAKKKEEEE UUUURRRRPPPPPPP"
love it. i woke up about 3:30 and had a barney with padge about music. seriously this one may not have been as personal as harleys one. but this one was an out and out shout match. now we all know my love of music. well we got very vocal about sell-outs and the like and bands making money, since apparently they shouldnt want to make any kind of money at all, i say sell out for an album, then do what the fuck u like after that. *cough* muse, blink, foos, pumpkins *cough*
well the nite continued with shots of cocktails made just for paul, and eventually at half 4 we sit down have a cup of tea and consider maybe going home, and hour later i get into my house and pass out with a bag of mini cheddars and a glass of water in hand.
EmLah at 12:23 pm
thers another 250 quid gone. they cant fix my camera cos all the power boards are fooked and would cost a lot to replace them. so iv bought the sexy black camera and a memory card. so ther goes another chunk of my post uni travelling money. i suppose it doesnt help it that about a grand of it has gradually been going into my account since christmas to pay my phone bills and the like eh?well im not up to much today i think padge is having a house party tonight which should be good. well i wasnt gonna go cos i thought that Tim was actually gonna come up this time, but as iv heard nothing from him im guessing he aint. still iv heard nothing from adam about dukes and itd only be me Paulo and Jane going so i guess ill go party with padgeham.
what the crunk man?!?!? big quote from any given sunday on the front of a Simple Plan track. i had no idea that was there!!
i managed to get my dad to watch Black Books with me today and he laughed!! i love finding him soemthing new to find funny, it was such a given that he would like it since if me and kate both like something and find it funny he always does. but hes a bit like me reading books that other people recommend, id rather find out for myself hence all the random books on my bookshelves!
MATT BUY TERRY PRATCHETT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW
EmLah at 3:54 pm
ok so i hate Villeneuve, the man has always been a menace but it was ok when he wasnt affecting Kimi. now hes effecting Kimi and im going to do him damage. DIE BITCH DIE. cough.ok so i need a new camera, well that is if the dude cant fix it tommoro and then ill have to buy a new one... the choices are....
Sony DSC-W17
Sony DSC-W5
its looking like the top one even tho its more expensive. even tho i havnt even had the total knowledge that my other one is fooked im still shopping lol.
EmLah at 3:19 pm
It reaally looks too good right now to go unnoticed. i mean i know i was at the pub earlier watching the footy and yes we really did suck we didnt deserve to win at all eh? but i just wanted a good picture of my and here was an oppotunity. although this picture will never ever beat the trillbe picture i think i got close...... you decide.... (sorry i've run out of Lost episodes)
EmLah at 7:53 pm
well thats annoying ... looks as if all the pictures iv put up on here using hello have all disappeared. its a good job theyr all on my http://www.flickr.com/photos/emlah flickr account
thats just gay bar. i figure now they have theyr own photo service they dont want people using other ones.
mmmm bed i think. i swear my body is gonna crash soon.
EmLah at 12:01 am
allo.lol i ended up out again last nite. i should really learn to say no. but it was for a good reason... ADAM PASSED!! his driving test that is and since this was his 6th attempt we all had to go out and celebrate eh? i also spotted my one true love. fuck me i swear my mouth was hanging open for about 5 mins after i spotted him. tall dark wide shoulders and dressed rock styley witha lil bit of facial hair. obviously i couldnt talk to him cos i am a total chicken. so i got tash to embarress me and inform him of my affections.. ALAS he has a girlfriend. but its ok cos this way he shall be always perfect in my mind. LOL i am actually a nut job.
but yey! should be seeing tim sometime soon. that'll be cool, don't quite know how to tell him that the injection has screwed with my cycle so once more im having the worlds longest period.... yikes i dont think he'll be overly happy. ah well would be bloody weird in my house anyway, my mum would probly implode with excitement that im not a dyke and i actually do occaisionally sleep with men.
pics from last nite as and when..
EmLah at 11:36 am
Was rather amusing. Ruth n SarahG came out to stuarts even and we all had some bevies witht he original SB crew, it was pretty wicked really like old times, especially when the bar closed and we all went back to my old manager Steves house like we always used to, although he didnt make us spag bol just gave us chipsticks and took his shirt off, which is a definate improvment from the last time i was there, since he fell down the stairs butt naked and proceded to run around and try to get me to look at him and his um glory!heh i really shouldnt drink. but hey ur only young once eh? lol finally decided to actually try n get friendly with Simon, come on he is batman. and it was all goin quite well till we went chelms and he got wasted n pulled his old girlfriend. nah ja. i spent a large portion of the night after that trying to work out if i should sleep with Sharpy or not. lol i mean de ja vu of 10 months ago or what. the funniest thing is hes off on his travels in a few weeks so i guess this is my karma for when i left in october to leave him to bear the brunt of the Stock Brook gossip.
now for those of u who havnt encountered Mike Sharp. he is one seriously hot guy. and i mean HOT i have no idea how i managed to resist him. but i guess even tho i am always attracted to guys who reckon they can do one better (which is probably my balance for it being the way i usually think too) it'd be nice to fall for a guy that doesnt have an ulteria motive. i mean look at my exs' the only guy who is actually different from the usual pattern was scott and we know how that turned out.
so Welsh drama and music geeks here i come eh?
but we all know i'll probably still pull Simon if he tries it on. im a sucker for romance.
EmLah at 2:09 pm
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