Blurble
I jut hada bath so you'd think i wouldnt be bored or unrelaxed. you guessed it i am both. had a rather large argument with dad today as hes been pissed since about 11am. when MotoGP started. i really enjoyed the race. but not his endless bitching about what was going on, i held my tongue as it continued thro formula one vowing not to hit him. i escaped to my room for a couple of hours to get frustrated with rollercoaster again. then i came downstairs to watch a film. dads watching the golf but says he doesnt care about it so i can put my film on, which is a "really good film" hes sure. now hes spent the last few days saying those three words whenever the mood takes him and im watching a film. i can accept he doesnt like my taste in films, and that he hasnt seen any new films since the 70's but when he keeps doing it over and over i get very close to murder. during the first hour of the film he appears intermittantly saying "wasnt there golf on" or "whats the score in the golf" funny the first time. tedious the 20th. and so he carrys on. he makes dinner which is nice steak and veg. he then makes another comment about how he's sure its a really good film. i um exploded. saying that i didnt know if it was a good film because i hadn't watched it yet and would he shut up, he gets this inane grin on his face, the one which basically states "im older than you and your silly" the stupid fucking smug face that always and i mean always makes me want to hurt people. so i explode with a further "why dont you go and watch something else where i wont desturb you and u can drink as much as u fucking like and it wont matter about the rest of us.
i depart the room, mum then makes a very good point that dad used to be funny and had a sharp sense of humour, but now he doesnt realise that his old SOH has turned bitter, nasty and negetive thro the drink. he goesto his room and is still in ther having left his drink and his dinner in the kitchen. i feel bad. but the owrst thing is i can see his SOH in me. i guess i inherited it along with the bump on the nose. if anyone ever notices me being this cruel please tell me so i can stop myself.
i had given up smoking but i tink i mite have a cigarette now. might cheer me up.
EmLah at 9:39 pm
Paulo says:
im runnin around in a gimp suit, beating people to death with a big purple dildo
I must say that is the most exciting thing thats occured all day. however qualifying for MotoGP and F1 were pretty good. Kimi is so good :) i don't know how he can overcome all the odds in qualifying then get fooked in the race. ruddy mclaren. i'm gonna try and find a photo of Checas highside in MotoGP it was amazing! and slightly scary but hey. it was cool id love to do a flip off a bike like that.
went to the boar last nite and met myles. he's cool i like him should see him sometime next week. can't see it going anywhere tho cos im off to uni in 8 weeks, the same time my new furniture arrives heh. typical eh? newhoodle gonna find that pic.
just found this!!! hilarious.
EmLah at 2:41 pm
oh my, i just found this on the dukes website
EmLah at 11:48 am
yeh im bored again :) and i literally woke up abbout 29 mins ago. i'd still b asleep if my mum hadnt called me again sayin "oh i had a missed call from u on my mobile" i swear she must put me on speaker phone in her office and everyone laughs. soooo its my date with miles tonight :) well i say date.... i'm meetin him at dukes later like we did last week. when did i become such a pessimist i cant be bothered to see him really cos im going to uni in 2 months so whats the point of starting something. ugh i'm geussin this new attitude came from the scott debarcle. fuck it. if it happens and feels good i'm gonna do it, if not then i wont.
reeet heres lil survey i did on myspace yesterday:
L a s t s
Last crush: Scott
Last phone call: My mother at like 9:30 this mornin to tell me the reading tickets had been dispatched :)
Last time showered: yesterday
Last shoes worn: My Kangaroo's which i bought from the funny gay guy in vancouver with lil rachel
Last item bought: Deathstalker Rebellion on Amazon
Last car ride: Harley's daddy took me to the pub last nite.
Last kiss: myles last week heh drunkeness
Last good cry: last time i got all depressed aboot canadia
Last movie seen: The Descent
Last beverage: OJ
Last food consumed: Caramel Dairy Milk
F i r s t s
First best friend: Elizabeth Wilkinson who moved up north
First car: none
First kiss on the lips: Asher in Infants or Pim maybe
First real kiss: Jason from skool
First break- up: Greg Wilgosh
First screen name: Bullet with Butterfly Wings
First self purchased album: The Best Album ever!!!
First funeral: i'd guess my nan when i was 3
First pets name: Freddie the Hamster, thought he'd died when freddie mercury did cos my mum didnt make it very clear.
First true love: Greg
First enemy: My Sister
First music you remember hearing in your house: CSN or Neil young i'd guess, maybe queen or billy joel
F a s h i o n S t u f f
Where is your favorite place to shop? Frozen ocean in banff
F a v o r i t e s
Color: green
Food: chicken
Drink: Coke
Boys' names: jaime
Girls' names: alanna
Subjects in school: Theatre, woodwork, english
Animals: moooooooose, cats n pikas
Sports: Motorsport mmmmm, badminton snowboardin surfin
Perfume: le grain de folie
Cologne: ultraviolet
H a v e Y o u E v e r
Smoked? yup
Made yourself throw up? yup
Skinny dipped?: yup
Been in love?: yup
Cried when someone died?: yes
Lied?: yup
Fallen for your best friend?: unfortunatly yes, bastard.
Been rejected?: unfortunatly yes, bastard.
Rejected someone?: yup
Used someone?: nup
Done something you regret?: whats life without regrets
C u r r e n t
Clothes: Goldfinger T-Shirt, roots sweatpants
Music: XFM
Make-up: none
Smell: OJ
Favorite Artist: LostProphets Always :)
Desktop picture: One of the boarders at LL during superpark, nice shot with temple in the background
DVD in player: Fawlty Towers
L a s t P e r s o n
Hugged: Fenn
You IMed: Harley Bear
Talked to on the Phone: my fucking mother mumble mumble
Said i love you to: fook i dunno
W h i c h I s B e t t e r
Coke or Pepsi: COKE mumblemumblePepsimumble
Flowers or Candy? Flowers
Tall or Short: tall
Thick or Thin: Thin
Long or Short: long
R a n d o m
In the morning you are: sleepy
All you need is: music
What do you notice on a person first?: hair
Last person you danced with: myself to that hard-fi song
Worst question to ask to a crying person: r u ok? OF COURSE I'M NOT FUCKING OK IM FUCKING CRYING
Who makes you laugh the most?: my dad whe hes sober
Who makes you smile?: harley
Who gives you a funny feeling when you see them? i dunno most people
N u m b e r
Of times you have had your heart broken: twice
Of hearts you have broken: two
Of guys you've kissed: how the fuck am i supposed to know that IM FROM ESSEX
Of girls you've kissed: about 6 or 7
Of continents you have lived in: 2
Of tight friends: 5 or 6 i think
Of CDs you own: quite a few, more MDs tho
EmLah at 10:58 am
Soooo you likey the pickys?
well its the same old deal tonight, am off to the boar for drinks with the crew. wooo.
heh no it'll be a laugh i'm sure I LOVE YOU HARLEY ;);) although it'd be cool if u commented sometimes, i always comment on your myspace u dirty arab. oops didnt mean that. sorry just spent the last 4 hours fighting with my printer and cutting out photos urgh, i swear the panoramic ones are the worst because theyr just so HUGE. if mum sees how much photo paper i've used up i may not get my new wardrobe. dude, like 4 months ago i'd b complaining of my latest injury, now im complaining that i mau have annoyed my parents and won't get a wardrobe. ah well thats the superficial world of essex for you. it's seeping in i can feel it, but i must be strong and stay as random as possible and most importantly... i must not get back with john, i wonder if he still thinks we're engaged? i mean we never actually broke it off i just kind of er went to canada. heh well that'll be interesting to write aboot in the future.
xx
EmLah at 5:46 pm
Some random doing a flip at splashdown /Surfing, snowboard styleee
Blakey Blake gave me a sparkler /This is a Colt 45 bottle on a tree, a totally inaccessable tree
When we became 'the blue people' /Niagra
They made me go up this./ Newspaper says it all :)
The Government Buildings /Beeeeeeutiful
This whale swan under our boat :O /KD is Queeeen of the Goats
EmLah at 1:10 pm
I also like Goats /But not as much as these guys like mushroooms
Little bit of friskyness /The stillest i've ever seen them
KIMI!!! /On the Track, ACTUALLY ON THE TRACK
me and heather, on a mountain /Me on a mountain
EmLah at 11:47 am
sorry its early. i just realised i never ask you lot how u r, so how r u? heh random mood today
ok so iv done like nothing the last few days, watched lots of nice motorsport on sunday :) twas fab u lus heres a pwetty picky of a mr shakey byrne who was running 6th til the rain got him
EmLah at 10:46 am
jeeez im bored
but i was too tired to go out earlier, i guess i still am now but i just keep gettin frustrated fr no reason. guess its cos thers nothing to do anymore. ah well only another 2 months and ill b in wales :) i'd probably be happier ifthe new rollercoaster game was better, what is it about theme park games that they just go pants when made 3d? its like theme park world, for some reason i always end up fighting the mouse or the angle or the placement of an object, stupid paths dont go rightlike they did in the 2nd one. actually its probly only annoyin me cos its basically the 2nd one but in 3d and ther isnt much new, except for this cool lil thing where u can change what the stalls sell and how they sell them. lol now i sound like im a huge fan, still im glad one aspect is good.
why is ther no one but emma online........ tum ti tum.
i probly shudv just gone out. hopefully i wont spend any money online as thatd mean that nothing good came of me ot going out heh.
just emailed wachel, paul n dave aboot reading, felt kinda rude asking for the money, make me feel a bit mean even tho i know im in the right i still got a little sick feeling when i hit send!
peace out
EmLah at 8:52 pm
ok best line ever... 'jesus was a black man, jesus is batman'
sorry just came on the radio.
right so a big update....
on tuesday jenny and i went to chelmsford, now u might think this means we went shopping, really no. we bought a picnic 8 cans of carling each, and proceeded to get very very drunk. now ther were lots of entertaining things, including....
mini jeny big beer. beeeeer can shoes.
i did have a photo of strawberry darts but u cant really see the point of the game so i didnt put it in. ok right well, at about 6 o'clock we ran out of smokes so off to the station we went, meeting jens sisters x on the way. he is very strange. very very steange thats all i need to say.
so then we wet to the station again at 9 to meet matt, this being phoenixs brother matt. then off to the bay we went. me and jenny are trollied at this point, we stayed in the bay til close then headed off to Toad to carry on. i have very hazy memories of the toad. we then got a cab home at 2am totally plastered. so a very good nite.
then last nite i went to dukes and again got very drunk, and then stayed at adams on a very small couch.
thats pretty much it. i need to stop drinking i think my livers gonna rebel.
oooooo i have rollercoaster tycoon 3. so i wont b around much until i get bored of playing it :)
EmLah at 6:09 pm
YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAH
im not dying :) blood test negetive for glandular fever AND i have a normal blood count so i don't have HIV woo, jenny sed i didnt! ok ill write a bigger entry later as still hvnt written about the entertainment of monday lol.
xx
(ooo it might be MRSA hehe)
EmLah at 12:09 pm
I just came back online and found this from a mr. matty moo.
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
hallo sexyt - mr for be ery pised
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
you don knoow niffui n about trawberry daerrts
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
cause you're funny and that eh?
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
anf it's nbot classic cause you don't know niuffin
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
but you're funbny tiououg, heaps funny
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
why does water taste like punch?
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
Emlee where are uou?
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
Elaeeee
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
hay!!!!! emlee!!!!
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
ay!
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
I dun drank too much punch eh? BNow I'm piseed as a frart and it's all your fault eh?
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
I', gonna watch big brother cause tit's got boobie s on it eh?
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
iseed as f¨ck eh?
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
oh fuck
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
too drunk eh/
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
but you're gone yhen eh? off to a picnic and stuff ehy?
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
but you're heaps nice andf i'm heaps drunk
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
fuckinmg punch
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
Emlee@!!!!
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
oYour'e away, awaaaayyy!!!! Pissed as a fart
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
I miss youuuuu
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
Enlle? Yu there eh?
Classic
EmLah at 3:50 pm
I did some quizessss, sorry :)
You're like me! The intelligent loner. You're shy
at times but friendly, and you are never weak
and always independent. You are incredibly
intelligent (wise beyond your years) and have a
talent for many things (sports, music, art).
You have a kind and warm personality and enjoy
the simple things. Like hanging out with
friends and watching movies at home. But you're
sometimes quiet nature makes you a bit of an
outcast and a mystery to people. No matter how
pretty you are or smart or athletic, you just
can't seem to break into the crowd and be
noticed. Don't worry, try to be more outgoing
and speak out when you have more to say. Don't
hide behind your books and sports and computer,
get out there and get noticed. You also have
deep desires in life and feel vunerable and
alone at times. Don't feel sad either, What
helps me to express feelings and dreams that I
can't say to people, is through my writing.
Maybe you should try.
What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)
brought to you by Quizilla
*************
Your wise quote is: "Fashion is a
form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to
alter it every six months" by Oscar
Wilde.You are a very sarcastic person with a
sharp tongue. You may not be the one always
talking, but your mind is nevertheless
critizing. You tend to have a cynical view on
life itself and be somewhat withdrawn with who
you really are. Society now is in your eyes
corrupted and you wonder how the world will
survive. And people are in your mind very
ignorant and blind to the reality.
What wise quote fits you?(pics) UPDATED
brought to you by Quizilla
You need love.
You are a pretty normal, well-rounded person
that just craves that fairy tale love where you
will be swept off your feet and live happily
ever after. Chances are that you fantasize or
dream about it so much that you either see all
the guys/girls as unromantic or you tell
yourself that anyone could be your soulmate.
You long to have someone by your side and you
want to give back on the romance part too, not
just give.
What Do You Need in Your Life? [dark pics]
brought to you by Quizilla
ok ill stop!
EmLah at 4:41 pm
sorry am a touch stressed, had a fab weekend with sibling, finished harry potter but am now having a war with CIBC as they r stupid. basically i kept being informed just before i left canadia that i had 'insufficient funds' so i figured i'd already emptied my account. duh duuuuuh nope i have $350. which i am now endeavoring to find a way to get it moved into my english bank. sure canadas part of the commonwealth so u'd think itd be easy. nope the bastards are just total bastards.
euk
anyway i love the ew harry potter even tho it was shorter than the last one it took me twice as long to read it which is a touch sucky but hey, the cats kept jumping on my book. and the kittens arent that bad although not worthy of being spoken too while im calling from canadia!
peace out til later
EmLah at 1:54 pm
lol sorry the randomness is taking over again
i'm in a fab mood cos im going to wolverhampton to see my sister and harry potter woooo! well not actually harry potter but u know what i mean.
well iv had my blood test, the doctor reckons it could be glandular fever woo! so lets all hpe it isnt anything more serious eh? cos thatd be sucky.
lol almost went all melodramatic then but reel big fish came on so i decided to dance instead. oh god i sound crazy :)
it's only cos i dont have to be in this shithole for 3 days :) i get to got to a different one instead :)
reeeet im off to pack!
woo
xxx
EmLah at 11:54 am
I managed not to post yesterday! i'm quite proud, i came close a couple of times but i refuseto be someone who just writes cos theyr bored, or pissed off..... so heres a new one.
im ever so slightly concerned. this is because my left hand parotid gland (thats the one just below your ear) is swollen, and has been swollen for about a month now. i went to the doctors about 2 weeks ago to see why this was so, and the doctor told me it was normal and the gland was just up for 'no apparent reason' well since then all the other glands in my neck have infated and now i think the one under my arm is up as well so im headed off to the doctor to see whats up. i'v been trying to convince myself its not cancer or HIV but its been really hard, im only over the HIV thing cos i remebered i was sick before i slept with hayden as well as after, i'v basically had about 2 weeks not ill since april. pretty sucky huh?!? i'm worried that something bad is gonna happen, i've been havin dreams and seeing signs everywhere that im sick, just not the level of the sickness. tis really getting to me. hopefully the doctors will do some tests and it'll just be glandular fever. please.
anyway, its been a pretty good day, have watched lots of motorbikes racing :) and been catching up on my musical knowledge, and i had a really long chat to jen earlier which was just fab, i really missed our random conversations and were gonna go for a picnic when i get back from wolves.
right im stopping now, wil update with what the docs say later. fingers crossed it'll b ok :S
EmLah at 2:55 pm
ah those were the days, lazing around after work.....with a pitcher......mountains in the background.........free pizza from paul..........in a fairy outfit.
ta matty chica for the beeee-utiful picture
EmLah at 7:14 pm
this is what it looks like when we go rafting :)
EmLah at 8:23 pm
i just want to put an apology up to mr tom fen for my nasty little piece before, to show my faith in the fact iv done something wrong and have to balance it out, i don't even know if hes read the entry yet but i acknoledge the wrong i've done and im not going to edit it out because im not a sneaky biatch anymore. all i can say is i was angry depressed and frustrated at the time and had no right to bitch in my blog when i really wasnt actually that angry or upset about our circumstances, sorry tom :S
anyway on a lighter note.. i should hopefully have a job lined up working for hf holiday in one of their country houses, its live in but the rates pretty cheap and it'll be cool to live in the middle of no where again, even if it is up north!
mmm streetcar again :)
EmLah at 8:11 pm
i am happy :)
kinda
i get to go stay with my elder sibling on friday which is gonna rock, although if i find billericay depressing when its actualy pretty green i expect wolverhampton, the concrete city will be worse, but its somewhere new and different and the new harry potter will come out on saturday so i can lose myself in that for a while. now i really know why i never understood when scott would go on about video games being escapism, but theres one thing i know for sure, id rather be in lake louise bored after work than at home with no job and no decent scenery or opportunities to do things :)
shize i did it again
anyway i get to decorate kates old room as she is now married and unlikely to come back, im gonna paint it bright green :> and then cover it in mountain posters, actually i might just go over the blue with another layer and then varnish so its shiny maybe even paint some clouds
oh lady im goin insane :)
i just read that theyve finally identified one of the most badly injured corpses, my thoughts are with all londoners (which is pretty much everyone around here) and i hope to the lady that nothing else like this will happen again.
EmLah at 11:07 am
EmLah at 8:02 pm
as i'm sure all you international friends will be glad to hear even if u never email me!!
those bombs really sucked man, why cant we all just feel loved (sorry that was the line from Brand New Hero by RBF) but anyway i just will never understand the kind of hollowness it must take for a person to stoop to that level.
anyway happy things..
there arent many really, i miss being free and i feel as if iv not just had my wings clipped but yanked off. i need to live in a less expensive and more laid back country, i hate the fact im stuck here unable to do any activitys that dont involve money. i know a month ago i was annoyed cos all anyone ever wanted to do was active stuff, i need balance! now im hanging around with entirely mental (not as in crazy) beings again im ack where i was before i left for canada. only now i have 2 guys fauning all over me and i wish theyd fuck off, ok so fish was a crush when i was younger, we had fun but now he wants the fun to re-occur, fen: dont even get me fucking started on that headcase, i dumper him for a reason all those years ago and now hes back at me again argh, if only thatd been a more amicable split maybe i wouldnt keep feeling sorry for him and going back argh. i just need to not be here.
if anyone wants to know my mood then download or listen to Streetcar by Funeral For A Friend, it totally describes where my head is.
dammit i came on here to write a nice churpy entry and it didnt happen did it, ok ill go and meditate and come back later im sorry this all just came out.
EmLah at 9:16 pm
yes indeed
i am now going to write a very long and eciting blog entry whilst attempting to talk on MSN at the same time.....ok so it definatly wont flow.
see what i mean i just had a conversation with matt about his hair and now i have no idea where i was gonna go next.
ok so, the last couple of weeks have been mental, iv literally been out every night apart from 2, yes 2 out of 14 days but iv only been totally off my face 3 times, and moderatly pissed at others so i thank u canadia for uping my consumption levels now i dont end up throwing up.
My sister got married last friday and it was so cool, i cant believe i cried from happiness, i hardly cry from sadness so the happiness thing was a touch weird. i introduced Haras to everyone as my date so now all the family friends think im a lesbian. classic, still i finally met Matt, who so that i wont confuse anyone with all the matts in my life we shall call mattphe as he is phoenix's brother, who i actually get on with very well but no kate nothing will happen we went to the flicks to see war of the worlds yesterday and basically took the piss out of eachother for an afternoon.
stuff with Matt butler still hasnt got off the ground if only because i havnt seen him yet, hes always at work during the day and im always out at nite so we should probably attempt to do somethin aboot that,
i have just been nformed that war of the worlds the old version is on TV so i shall continues this tomoro.....
.....
yeh i lasted like 5 mins watchin the film and had an urge for FFAF their album is really good.
so anyway iv been partying my arse off with various results most quite funny in the cold morning light. it was so good to come back and find that everyone had missed me as much as id missed them, but its hard as well, canada seems like a dream, and one i woke up from all too quickly. i wish i could go back there now, but i know this isnt a good idea because the experience wont b the same and its the experience that has defiantly ended that im craving, ill sit tight drink a lot and wait for the feeling to depart, my family is pretty good at that as i have been harshly reminded since coming back, having to wait for my parents to do stuff like fix the shower or get wireless is really frustrating i feel i should just go out and do it, i now kno the reason iv never enjoyed living at home is the lack of control, i cant help it im frustrated when i cant control the world around me.
yikes this was supposed to b an up beat entry so id better stop i suppose, peace to the crew brovaz?!?! lol
xx
EmLah at 3:12 pm
I jut hada bath so you'd think i wouldnt be bored or unrelaxed. you guessed it i am both. had a rather large argument with dad today as hes been pissed since about 11am. when MotoGP started. i really enjoyed the race. but not his endless bitching about what was going on, i held my tongue as it continued thro formula one vowing not to hit him. i escaped to my room for a couple of hours to get frustrated with rollercoaster again. then i came downstairs to watch a film. dads watching the golf but says he doesnt care about it so i can put my film on, which is a "really good film" hes sure. now hes spent the last few days saying those three words whenever the mood takes him and im watching a film. i can accept he doesnt like my taste in films, and that he hasnt seen any new films since the 70's but when he keeps doing it over and over i get very close to murder. during the first hour of the film he appears intermittantly saying "wasnt there golf on" or "whats the score in the golf" funny the first time. tedious the 20th. and so he carrys on. he makes dinner which is nice steak and veg. he then makes another comment about how he's sure its a really good film. i um exploded. saying that i didnt know if it was a good film because i hadn't watched it yet and would he shut up, he gets this inane grin on his face, the one which basically states "im older than you and your silly" the stupid fucking smug face that always and i mean always makes me want to hurt people. so i explode with a further "why dont you go and watch something else where i wont desturb you and u can drink as much as u fucking like and it wont matter about the rest of us.
i depart the room, mum then makes a very good point that dad used to be funny and had a sharp sense of humour, but now he doesnt realise that his old SOH has turned bitter, nasty and negetive thro the drink. he goesto his room and is still in ther having left his drink and his dinner in the kitchen. i feel bad. but the owrst thing is i can see his SOH in me. i guess i inherited it along with the bump on the nose. if anyone ever notices me being this cruel please tell me so i can stop myself.
i had given up smoking but i tink i mite have a cigarette now. might cheer me up.
EmLah at 9:39 pm
Paulo says:im runnin around in a gimp suit, beating people to death with a big purple dildo
I must say that is the most exciting thing thats occured all day. however qualifying for MotoGP and F1 were pretty good. Kimi is so good :) i don't know how he can overcome all the odds in qualifying then get fooked in the race. ruddy mclaren. i'm gonna try and find a photo of Checas highside in MotoGP it was amazing! and slightly scary but hey. it was cool id love to do a flip off a bike like that.
went to the boar last nite and met myles. he's cool i like him should see him sometime next week. can't see it going anywhere tho cos im off to uni in 8 weeks, the same time my new furniture arrives heh. typical eh? newhoodle gonna find that pic.
just found this!!! hilarious.
EmLah at 2:41 pm
oh my, i just found this on the dukes websiteMe and Adam
so i went lookin for the photos from exam nite last year and here they r actually they rnt, because for some reason dukes have just taken the page down, like JUST while i was doing it! so if they put it back up ill add these in. so gay!
then we went to school disco nights.... i assure u i never went in uniform
Kash n Greg are so tuneful
i swear ther were some of me n sarah somewhere, ah well
EmLah at 11:48 am
hellloooo,
yeh im bored again :) and i literally woke up abbout 29 mins ago. i'd still b asleep if my mum hadnt called me again sayin "oh i had a missed call from u on my mobile" i swear she must put me on speaker phone in her office and everyone laughs. soooo its my date with miles tonight :) well i say date.... i'm meetin him at dukes later like we did last week. when did i become such a pessimist i cant be bothered to see him really cos im going to uni in 2 months so whats the point of starting something. ugh i'm geussin this new attitude came from the scott debarcle. fuck it. if it happens and feels good i'm gonna do it, if not then i wont.
reeet heres lil survey i did on myspace yesterday:
L a s t s
Last crush: Scott
Last phone call: My mother at like 9:30 this mornin to tell me the reading tickets had been dispatched :)
Last time showered: yesterday
Last shoes worn: My Kangaroo's which i bought from the funny gay guy in vancouver with lil rachel
Last item bought: Deathstalker Rebellion on Amazon
Last car ride: Harley's daddy took me to the pub last nite.
Last kiss: myles last week heh drunkeness
Last good cry: last time i got all depressed aboot canadia
Last movie seen: The Descent
Last beverage: OJ
Last food consumed: Caramel Dairy Milk
F i r s t s
First best friend: Elizabeth Wilkinson who moved up north
First car: none
First kiss on the lips: Asher in Infants or Pim maybe
First real kiss: Jason from skool
First break- up: Greg Wilgosh
First screen name: Bullet with Butterfly Wings
First self purchased album: The Best Album ever!!!
First funeral: i'd guess my nan when i was 3
First pets name: Freddie the Hamster, thought he'd died when freddie mercury did cos my mum didnt make it very clear.
First true love: Greg
First enemy: My Sister
First music you remember hearing in your house: CSN or Neil young i'd guess, maybe queen or billy joel
F a s h i o n S t u f f
Where is your favorite place to shop? Frozen ocean in banff
F a v o r i t e s
Color: green
Food: chicken
Drink: Coke
Boys' names: jaime
Girls' names: alanna
Subjects in school: Theatre, woodwork, english
Animals: moooooooose, cats n pikas
Sports: Motorsport mmmmm, badminton snowboardin surfin
Perfume: le grain de folie
Cologne: ultraviolet
H a v e Y o u E v e r
Smoked? yup
Made yourself throw up? yup
Skinny dipped?: yup
Been in love?: yup
Cried when someone died?: yes
Lied?: yup
Fallen for your best friend?: unfortunatly yes, bastard.
Been rejected?: unfortunatly yes, bastard.
Rejected someone?: yup
Used someone?: nup
Done something you regret?: whats life without regrets
C u r r e n t
Clothes: Goldfinger T-Shirt, roots sweatpants
Music: XFM
Make-up: none
Smell: OJ
Favorite Artist: LostProphets Always :)
Desktop picture: One of the boarders at LL during superpark, nice shot with temple in the background
DVD in player: Fawlty Towers
L a s t P e r s o n
Hugged: Fenn
You IMed: Harley Bear
Talked to on the Phone: my fucking mother mumble mumble
Said i love you to: fook i dunno
W h i c h I s B e t t e r
Coke or Pepsi: COKE mumblemumblePepsimumble
Flowers or Candy? Flowers
Tall or Short: tall
Thick or Thin: Thin
Long or Short: long
R a n d o m
In the morning you are: sleepy
All you need is: music
What do you notice on a person first?: hair
Last person you danced with: myself to that hard-fi song
Worst question to ask to a crying person: r u ok? OF COURSE I'M NOT FUCKING OK IM FUCKING CRYING
Who makes you laugh the most?: my dad whe hes sober
Who makes you smile?: harley
Who gives you a funny feeling when you see them? i dunno most people
N u m b e r
Of times you have had your heart broken: twice
Of hearts you have broken: two
Of guys you've kissed: how the fuck am i supposed to know that IM FROM ESSEX
Of girls you've kissed: about 6 or 7
Of continents you have lived in: 2
Of tight friends: 5 or 6 i think
Of CDs you own: quite a few, more MDs tho
EmLah at 10:58 am
Soooo you likey the pickys?well its the same old deal tonight, am off to the boar for drinks with the crew. wooo.
heh no it'll be a laugh i'm sure I LOVE YOU HARLEY ;);) although it'd be cool if u commented sometimes, i always comment on your myspace u dirty arab. oops didnt mean that. sorry just spent the last 4 hours fighting with my printer and cutting out photos urgh, i swear the panoramic ones are the worst because theyr just so HUGE. if mum sees how much photo paper i've used up i may not get my new wardrobe. dude, like 4 months ago i'd b complaining of my latest injury, now im complaining that i mau have annoyed my parents and won't get a wardrobe. ah well thats the superficial world of essex for you. it's seeping in i can feel it, but i must be strong and stay as random as possible and most importantly... i must not get back with john, i wonder if he still thinks we're engaged? i mean we never actually broke it off i just kind of er went to canada. heh well that'll be interesting to write aboot in the future.
xx
EmLah at 5:46 pm
Some random doing a flip at splashdown /Surfing, snowboard styleee
Blakey Blake gave me a sparkler /This is a Colt 45 bottle on a tree, a totally inaccessable tree
When we became 'the blue people' /Niagra
They made me go up this./ Newspaper says it all :)
The Government Buildings /Beeeeeeutiful
This whale swan under our boat :O /KD is Queeeen of the Goats
EmLah at 1:10 pm
Pickys # 2
I also like Goats /But not as much as these guys like mushroooms
Little bit of friskyness /The stillest i've ever seen them
Beach
Jellyfish /It's ME!!!!!
KIMI!!! /On the Track, ACTUALLY ON THE TRACK
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me and heather, on a mountain /Me on a mountain
EmLah at 11:47 am
banananaa
sorry its early. i just realised i never ask you lot how u r, so how r u? heh random mood today
ok so iv done like nothing the last few days, watched lots of nice motorsport on sunday :) twas fab u lus heres a pwetty picky of a mr shakey byrne who was running 6th til the rain got him
ooo i might put some more photos up... actually i think i will, since i spent a very large amount of time attempting to connect my laptop to the printer ugh.
EmLah at 10:46 am
jeeez im boredbut i was too tired to go out earlier, i guess i still am now but i just keep gettin frustrated fr no reason. guess its cos thers nothing to do anymore. ah well only another 2 months and ill b in wales :) i'd probably be happier ifthe new rollercoaster game was better, what is it about theme park games that they just go pants when made 3d? its like theme park world, for some reason i always end up fighting the mouse or the angle or the placement of an object, stupid paths dont go rightlike they did in the 2nd one. actually its probly only annoyin me cos its basically the 2nd one but in 3d and ther isnt much new, except for this cool lil thing where u can change what the stalls sell and how they sell them. lol now i sound like im a huge fan, still im glad one aspect is good.
why is ther no one but emma online........ tum ti tum.
i probly shudv just gone out. hopefully i wont spend any money online as thatd mean that nothing good came of me ot going out heh.
just emailed wachel, paul n dave aboot reading, felt kinda rude asking for the money, make me feel a bit mean even tho i know im in the right i still got a little sick feeling when i hit send!
peace out
EmLah at 8:52 pm
ok best line ever... 'jesus was a black man, jesus is batman'sorry just came on the radio.
right so a big update....
on tuesday jenny and i went to chelmsford, now u might think this means we went shopping, really no. we bought a picnic 8 cans of carling each, and proceeded to get very very drunk. now ther were lots of entertaining things, including....
mini jeny big beer. beeeeer can shoes.
i did have a photo of strawberry darts but u cant really see the point of the game so i didnt put it in. ok right well, at about 6 o'clock we ran out of smokes so off to the station we went, meeting jens sisters x on the way. he is very strange. very very steange thats all i need to say.
so then we wet to the station again at 9 to meet matt, this being phoenixs brother matt. then off to the bay we went. me and jenny are trollied at this point, we stayed in the bay til close then headed off to Toad to carry on. i have very hazy memories of the toad. we then got a cab home at 2am totally plastered. so a very good nite.
then last nite i went to dukes and again got very drunk, and then stayed at adams on a very small couch.
thats pretty much it. i need to stop drinking i think my livers gonna rebel.
oooooo i have rollercoaster tycoon 3. so i wont b around much until i get bored of playing it :)
EmLah at 6:09 pm
YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAHim not dying :) blood test negetive for glandular fever AND i have a normal blood count so i don't have HIV woo, jenny sed i didnt! ok ill write a bigger entry later as still hvnt written about the entertainment of monday lol.
xx
(ooo it might be MRSA hehe)
EmLah at 12:09 pm
I just came back online and found this from a mr. matty moo.Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
hallo sexyt - mr for be ery pised
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
you don knoow niffui n about trawberry daerrts
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
cause you're funny and that eh?
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
anf it's nbot classic cause you don't know niuffin
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
but you're funbny tiououg, heaps funny
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
why does water taste like punch?
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
Emlee where are uou?
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
Elaeeee
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
hay!!!!! emlee!!!!
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
ay!
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
I dun drank too much punch eh? BNow I'm piseed as a frart and it's all your fault eh?
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
I', gonna watch big brother cause tit's got boobie s on it eh?
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
iseed as f¨ck eh?
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
oh fuck
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
too drunk eh/
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
but you're gone yhen eh? off to a picnic and stuff ehy?
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
but you're heaps nice andf i'm heaps drunk
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
fuckinmg punch
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
Emlee@!!!!
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
oYour'e away, awaaaayyy!!!! Pissed as a fart
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
I miss youuuuu
Harry Windsor - The Bloodnut Prince says:
Enlle? Yu there eh?
Classic
EmLah at 3:50 pm
I did some quizessss, sorry :)You're like me! The intelligent loner. You're shy
at times but friendly, and you are never weak
and always independent. You are incredibly
intelligent (wise beyond your years) and have a
talent for many things (sports, music, art).
You have a kind and warm personality and enjoy
the simple things. Like hanging out with
friends and watching movies at home. But you're
sometimes quiet nature makes you a bit of an
outcast and a mystery to people. No matter how
pretty you are or smart or athletic, you just
can't seem to break into the crowd and be
noticed. Don't worry, try to be more outgoing
and speak out when you have more to say. Don't
hide behind your books and sports and computer,
get out there and get noticed. You also have
deep desires in life and feel vunerable and
alone at times. Don't feel sad either, What
helps me to express feelings and dreams that I
can't say to people, is through my writing.
Maybe you should try.
What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)
brought to you by Quizilla
*************
Your wise quote is: "Fashion is a
form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to
alter it every six months" by Oscar
Wilde.You are a very sarcastic person with a
sharp tongue. You may not be the one always
talking, but your mind is nevertheless
critizing. You tend to have a cynical view on
life itself and be somewhat withdrawn with who
you really are. Society now is in your eyes
corrupted and you wonder how the world will
survive. And people are in your mind very
ignorant and blind to the reality.
What wise quote fits you?(pics) UPDATED
brought to you by Quizilla
You need love.
You are a pretty normal, well-rounded person
that just craves that fairy tale love where you
will be swept off your feet and live happily
ever after. Chances are that you fantasize or
dream about it so much that you either see all
the guys/girls as unromantic or you tell
yourself that anyone could be your soulmate.
You long to have someone by your side and you
want to give back on the romance part too, not
just give.
What Do You Need in Your Life? [dark pics]
brought to you by Quizilla
ok ill stop!
EmLah at 4:41 pm
BANANA HAMMOCK
sorry am a touch stressed, had a fab weekend with sibling, finished harry potter but am now having a war with CIBC as they r stupid. basically i kept being informed just before i left canadia that i had 'insufficient funds' so i figured i'd already emptied my account. duh duuuuuh nope i have $350. which i am now endeavoring to find a way to get it moved into my english bank. sure canadas part of the commonwealth so u'd think itd be easy. nope the bastards are just total bastards.
euk
anyway i love the ew harry potter even tho it was shorter than the last one it took me twice as long to read it which is a touch sucky but hey, the cats kept jumping on my book. and the kittens arent that bad although not worthy of being spoken too while im calling from canadia!
peace out til later
EmLah at 1:54 pm
lol sorry the randomness is taking over againi'm in a fab mood cos im going to wolverhampton to see my sister and harry potter woooo! well not actually harry potter but u know what i mean.
well iv had my blood test, the doctor reckons it could be glandular fever woo! so lets all hpe it isnt anything more serious eh? cos thatd be sucky.
lol almost went all melodramatic then but reel big fish came on so i decided to dance instead. oh god i sound crazy :)
it's only cos i dont have to be in this shithole for 3 days :) i get to got to a different one instead :)
reeeet im off to pack!
woo
xxx
EmLah at 11:54 am
I managed not to post yesterday! i'm quite proud, i came close a couple of times but i refuseto be someone who just writes cos theyr bored, or pissed off..... so heres a new one.im ever so slightly concerned. this is because my left hand parotid gland (thats the one just below your ear) is swollen, and has been swollen for about a month now. i went to the doctors about 2 weeks ago to see why this was so, and the doctor told me it was normal and the gland was just up for 'no apparent reason' well since then all the other glands in my neck have infated and now i think the one under my arm is up as well so im headed off to the doctor to see whats up. i'v been trying to convince myself its not cancer or HIV but its been really hard, im only over the HIV thing cos i remebered i was sick before i slept with hayden as well as after, i'v basically had about 2 weeks not ill since april. pretty sucky huh?!? i'm worried that something bad is gonna happen, i've been havin dreams and seeing signs everywhere that im sick, just not the level of the sickness. tis really getting to me. hopefully the doctors will do some tests and it'll just be glandular fever. please.
anyway, its been a pretty good day, have watched lots of motorbikes racing :) and been catching up on my musical knowledge, and i had a really long chat to jen earlier which was just fab, i really missed our random conversations and were gonna go for a picnic when i get back from wolves.
right im stopping now, wil update with what the docs say later. fingers crossed it'll b ok :S
EmLah at 2:55 pm
ah those were the days, lazing around after work.....with a pitcher......mountains in the background.........free pizza from paul..........in a fairy outfit.
ta matty chica for the beeee-utiful picture
EmLah at 7:14 pm
this is what it looks like when we go rafting :)
EmLah at 8:23 pm
after my beautiful little re-vamp i have finally relearnt (hopefully for the last time, but hey i always forget) how to enter images already on the web woo. so im gonna go and steal some photos from my sister sos i can put the wedding ones up :).
i just want to put an apology up to mr tom fen for my nasty little piece before, to show my faith in the fact iv done something wrong and have to balance it out, i don't even know if hes read the entry yet but i acknoledge the wrong i've done and im not going to edit it out because im not a sneaky biatch anymore. all i can say is i was angry depressed and frustrated at the time and had no right to bitch in my blog when i really wasnt actually that angry or upset about our circumstances, sorry tom :S
anyway on a lighter note.. i should hopefully have a job lined up working for hf holiday in one of their country houses, its live in but the rates pretty cheap and it'll be cool to live in the middle of no where again, even if it is up north!
mmm streetcar again :)
EmLah at 8:11 pm
i am happy :)kinda
i get to go stay with my elder sibling on friday which is gonna rock, although if i find billericay depressing when its actualy pretty green i expect wolverhampton, the concrete city will be worse, but its somewhere new and different and the new harry potter will come out on saturday so i can lose myself in that for a while. now i really know why i never understood when scott would go on about video games being escapism, but theres one thing i know for sure, id rather be in lake louise bored after work than at home with no job and no decent scenery or opportunities to do things :)
shize i did it again
anyway i get to decorate kates old room as she is now married and unlikely to come back, im gonna paint it bright green :> and then cover it in mountain posters, actually i might just go over the blue with another layer and then varnish so its shiny maybe even paint some clouds
oh lady im goin insane :)
i just read that theyve finally identified one of the most badly injured corpses, my thoughts are with all londoners (which is pretty much everyone around here) and i hope to the lady that nothing else like this will happen again.
EmLah at 11:07 am
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EmLah at 8:02 pm
as i'm sure all you international friends will be glad to hear even if u never email me!!those bombs really sucked man, why cant we all just feel loved (sorry that was the line from Brand New Hero by RBF) but anyway i just will never understand the kind of hollowness it must take for a person to stoop to that level.
anyway happy things..
there arent many really, i miss being free and i feel as if iv not just had my wings clipped but yanked off. i need to live in a less expensive and more laid back country, i hate the fact im stuck here unable to do any activitys that dont involve money. i know a month ago i was annoyed cos all anyone ever wanted to do was active stuff, i need balance! now im hanging around with entirely mental (not as in crazy) beings again im ack where i was before i left for canada. only now i have 2 guys fauning all over me and i wish theyd fuck off, ok so fish was a crush when i was younger, we had fun but now he wants the fun to re-occur, fen: dont even get me fucking started on that headcase, i dumper him for a reason all those years ago and now hes back at me again argh, if only thatd been a more amicable split maybe i wouldnt keep feeling sorry for him and going back argh. i just need to not be here.
if anyone wants to know my mood then download or listen to Streetcar by Funeral For A Friend, it totally describes where my head is.
dammit i came on here to write a nice churpy entry and it didnt happen did it, ok ill go and meditate and come back later im sorry this all just came out.
EmLah at 9:16 pm
yes indeedi am now going to write a very long and eciting blog entry whilst attempting to talk on MSN at the same time.....ok so it definatly wont flow.
see what i mean i just had a conversation with matt about his hair and now i have no idea where i was gonna go next.
ok so, the last couple of weeks have been mental, iv literally been out every night apart from 2, yes 2 out of 14 days but iv only been totally off my face 3 times, and moderatly pissed at others so i thank u canadia for uping my consumption levels now i dont end up throwing up.
My sister got married last friday and it was so cool, i cant believe i cried from happiness, i hardly cry from sadness so the happiness thing was a touch weird. i introduced Haras to everyone as my date so now all the family friends think im a lesbian. classic, still i finally met Matt, who so that i wont confuse anyone with all the matts in my life we shall call mattphe as he is phoenix's brother, who i actually get on with very well but no kate nothing will happen we went to the flicks to see war of the worlds yesterday and basically took the piss out of eachother for an afternoon.
stuff with Matt butler still hasnt got off the ground if only because i havnt seen him yet, hes always at work during the day and im always out at nite so we should probably attempt to do somethin aboot that,
i have just been nformed that war of the worlds the old version is on TV so i shall continues this tomoro.....
.....
yeh i lasted like 5 mins watchin the film and had an urge for FFAF their album is really good.
so anyway iv been partying my arse off with various results most quite funny in the cold morning light. it was so good to come back and find that everyone had missed me as much as id missed them, but its hard as well, canada seems like a dream, and one i woke up from all too quickly. i wish i could go back there now, but i know this isnt a good idea because the experience wont b the same and its the experience that has defiantly ended that im craving, ill sit tight drink a lot and wait for the feeling to depart, my family is pretty good at that as i have been harshly reminded since coming back, having to wait for my parents to do stuff like fix the shower or get wireless is really frustrating i feel i should just go out and do it, i now kno the reason iv never enjoyed living at home is the lack of control, i cant help it im frustrated when i cant control the world around me.
yikes this was supposed to b an up beat entry so id better stop i suppose, peace to the crew brovaz?!?! lol
xx
EmLah at 3:12 pm
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