as i'm sure all you international friends will be glad to hear even if u never email me!!
those bombs really sucked man, why cant we all just feel loved (sorry that was the line from Brand New Hero by RBF) but anyway i just will never understand the kind of hollowness it must take for a person to stoop to that level.
anyway happy things..
there arent many really, i miss being free and i feel as if iv not just had my wings clipped but yanked off. i need to live in a less expensive and more laid back country, i hate the fact im stuck here unable to do any activitys that dont involve money. i know a month ago i was annoyed cos all anyone ever wanted to do was active stuff, i need balance! now im hanging around with entirely mental (not as in crazy) beings again im ack where i was before i left for canada. only now i have 2 guys fauning all over me and i wish theyd fuck off, ok so fish was a crush when i was younger, we had fun but now he wants the fun to re-occur, fen: dont even get me fucking started on that headcase, i dumper him for a reason all those years ago and now hes back at me again argh, if only thatd been a more amicable split maybe i wouldnt keep feeling sorry for him and going back argh. i just need to not be here.
if anyone wants to know my mood then download or listen to Streetcar by Funeral For A Friend, it totally describes where my head is.
dammit i came on here to write a nice churpy entry and it didnt happen did it, ok ill go and meditate and come back later im sorry this all just came out.
EmLah at 9:16 pm
those bombs really sucked man, why cant we all just feel loved (sorry that was the line from Brand New Hero by RBF) but anyway i just will never understand the kind of hollowness it must take for a person to stoop to that level.
anyway happy things..
there arent many really, i miss being free and i feel as if iv not just had my wings clipped but yanked off. i need to live in a less expensive and more laid back country, i hate the fact im stuck here unable to do any activitys that dont involve money. i know a month ago i was annoyed cos all anyone ever wanted to do was active stuff, i need balance! now im hanging around with entirely mental (not as in crazy) beings again im ack where i was before i left for canada. only now i have 2 guys fauning all over me and i wish theyd fuck off, ok so fish was a crush when i was younger, we had fun but now he wants the fun to re-occur, fen: dont even get me fucking started on that headcase, i dumper him for a reason all those years ago and now hes back at me again argh, if only thatd been a more amicable split maybe i wouldnt keep feeling sorry for him and going back argh. i just need to not be here.
if anyone wants to know my mood then download or listen to Streetcar by Funeral For A Friend, it totally describes where my head is.
dammit i came on here to write a nice churpy entry and it didnt happen did it, ok ill go and meditate and come back later im sorry this all just came out.
EmLah at 9:16 pm
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